For as long as I can remember, I have believed in the supernatural. My first experience with death was the passing of my grandmother when I was about 10 years old and I remember everyone saying that she would be watching over me and always with me now. This idea put a seed of belief in the afterlife and ghosts that I took every opportunity to nurture. I would read books about the subject and watch as many movies or documentaries as possible. I felt as though I had gained a lot of knowledge on the subject yet I had never had an experience of my own. Until one day while I was reading a book about a documented haunting, I suddenly felt something plop down at the foot of my bed; it startled me but at the same time filled me with a sense of excitement. I had experienced something that I attributed to supernatural. Now I was a true believer, nothing could sway me. I began to expand my research and became fascinated with stories of psychics and used to wish that I too could have the ability to see into a person’s past or predict their future.
So when the opportunity to have a psychic reading presented as a possible assignment, I thought it could be a great way to experience this side of my supernatural belief. I decided to get a reading at the Psychic Eye Bookshop; I was familiar enough with the store that I would not be distracted by something new and would be able to focus on what the psychic said. I wanted to know about three very specific things and I made sure to concentrate on them. I wanted to know something particular about my future career, because I have been floundering back and forth about exactly what I want to do; finally I have decided and even met the person in L.A. County who does what I hope to do one day. Through a series of meetings and lunches with him, I have been able to ask questions about what I will need to be eligible, unfortunately unbeknownst to him, he told some disturbing news about life experiences that would keep me from the job. Since then I have been questioning if I am on the right path. I don’t want to waste time in school only to find that I can’t work in the field I want because of something I did in my past—
and that my school performance may not be enough to wipe out past actions.
Secondly I wanted to know if my stepmother, who passed in May 2003, is able to see my progress and to let her know that I miss and love her. Lastly I wanted to know if she could see where I would be living after graduating with my B.S. I have always envisioned myself on the East Coast because I enjoy the change of seasons, especially the rainy season. I grew up in New Jersey where it rains quite a bit and after all my years in California it’s the one thing I miss the most, and I have always pictured the rest of my life on the East Coast either in Connecticut or New Jersey. With these things clearly on my mind I called the Psychic Eye and made an appointment for a 30-minute reading with a woman named Megan.
When I arrived Megan came out to greet me, she was medium height, with short brown hair and a pleasant face, she was wearing white jeans and a tank top, which made me feel relaxed and comfortable as this is often an outfit I wear. She shook my hand and led me back to her room, which was small with a round table on one side and a beautiful celestial tapestry hanging on the opposite wall.
After we sat, she brought out a deck of cards and asked to say my full name out loud three times. She explained that this helped her to focus on my energy, after repeating my name she spread the deck across the table face down and asked me to pick twelve cards. When I had finished she laid them face up in three rows of four each, I immediately noticed the card reading death appeared at the top of the third row. She looked at this card and asked is someone in your family sick? To which I immediately thought of my stepmother, but she had already past, so I replied, no. She looked perplexed for a minute then she said, I see something about your job and she trailed off. I thought, she wants me to reveal something now, and even though I believe in this I wanted her to prove to me that she could see things. I was afraid she might just say something general that could apply to anyone, so I wanted to pose a bit of a challenge and wanted to hear something specific.
She looked at the cards then back at me and she said who is the old man that advises you about work? That was specific enough for me, and I immediately thought of the person I had been having lunch with, and I said that’s my career mentor. She said ok now it’s a bit clearer, you and he had a difference of opinion about something. This made me reflect on the conversation he and I had about my past being a barrier to my future despite good grades. She told me that I needed to stick to my own beliefs and that what I put my mind to I would accomplish. Then she gathered up the cards and asked to me to think of something else and pick twelve again. When I finished she laid them out exactly the same as before and again the death card was on top of the third row. This time she said someone close to you that you love very much is dead, who is it? I told her about my stepmother and that in her I lost three people because my stepmother was my mom, my big sister and my best friend.
The psychic said that this might be why she saw a sick relative at first, because my stepmother represented so many different important roles in my life. She also said she could see my stepmother jumping up and down with excitement for me and that she is with me a lot. Then she asked, was my stepmother a doctor? Which I found interesting because that is what she wanted to be and I told the psychic that. Then she asked if that’s what I wanted to be, because she sensed the same scholastic goals in me that my stepmother had.
Again I was amazed because I want to work indirectly in the medical field and my stepmother was a direct influence on that. I told the psychic that I was planning on working as a forensic scientist and ultimately as a medical examiner one day. With a look of relief the psychic says oh I am so glad you told me because I kept seeing a vision of corpses and I didn’t know why and I didn’t want to scare you but now it makes sense why I am seeing that. I have to say I was amazed by that, but somewhere in the back of my mind there was a little voice telling me this can’t be true. Why not, I believe in this, was my answer back to that little voice.